Smile And Nod

If your Mexican, its kinda shameful if you cant speak Spanish fluently. Its even more shameful if you "try" to speak Spanish to Spanish speakers and you say your sentences all wrong. In reply of what you "tried" to say, they just laugh and make fun of you behind your back. Okay, maybe I'm being a little dramatic but thats how I feel when Im speaking with Spanish speakers. Im Mexican and Im ashamed that I cant speak Spanish right. Only the basics but they...just...talk...so...fast and if they know you didnt understand what they just said, they laugh at you. I try to speak Spanish but I either pronounce it wrong or say the wrong word. Its embarrassing! Every time that happens it makes me want to speak less and less and less Spanish. It makes me feel stupid sometimes, well really most of the time. I know not every person is like that, but it seems that I always keep running into people who are like that. Thats why I just try to avoid talking in Spanish and when I have to "talk", I just smile and nod.

 I sometimes wish that my parents taught me how to speak Spanish when I was little. When I was little though, I wouldn't or couldn't speak at the age of 5. My mom got worried so she took me to the doctors and told them to put me in speech therapy. Apparently when I was little, my dad was speaking to me in Spanish and my mom spoke to me in english. Anyways, the doctors told them to just talk to me in english. So my dad stop talking to me in Spanish and here I am with this problem. Am I the only one suffering with this problem? 






jusqu'à la fois prochaine mes amours,
Divine Dae