Oh Snap! Its About To Get Real!

Bonjour tout le monde! Can anyone tell me what love is?? Anyone? Because I don't feel it, I don't know it, I'm kinda scared of it and I don't trust it anymore (well, sometimes but ehh..). I'm going to be honest with you. My parents are divorced (they didn't get the papers sign yet but it seems official). My dad doesn't live with us anymore and my mom completely wants him out of her life. It hurts so much to see people that used to love each other split. It even hurts more when they already moved on and got themselves a NEW F-ing BOYFRIEND!!! WHO LIVES IN YOUR HOUSE ALL THE TIME!!! I don't really consider that person a "boyfriend" if he lives in your house ALL the time. Why can't my mom find happiness through something else? I'm scared when I'm in my room while my mom and her boyfriend are in their room too. Do you get the picture? The bird and the bee's...Do I have to say more? Its disgusting I tell you. I can't sleep anymore when I'm living with my mom. I can't stop crying. I use to be a happy person.

I hate her boyfriend. He looks like the "Thing" from the Fantastic Four movie. He's not bad personality wise, I just hate the fact he's in my house and my mom is dating him.

Ever since my mom told me about the divorce I've been grieving about it. I'm trying to not let this effect my life but the choices you make around your love one's affect them too. What you do around people affects them too. So, I can't really escape it. I've also been confused about what true love is. I admire couples who stayed with each other for long time. I wonder whats there secret is...What is true love suppose to look like? I'm also scared of it for some reason. I'm scared to date anyone because I don't want to get hurt. I have trust issues with people sometimes. I don't trust them to love me...I guess. In all, I'm just hurt and scared. I sometimes think "why am I so hurt from this? It's not my life.". But when you care about someone, you want them to see them happy.

I think my mom is in denial about this. I don't think she's truly happy. Well, in my opinion at least. I mean she hooked up after the divorce for goodness sakes! Doesn't that show something?? She always tells me that she still cares about my dad but she's always talking bad about him. She always saying that she"s glad he's gone. She even told him he can't come inside our house anymore to talk to us. DOES THAT SHOW ANY "CARE-NESS" ABOUT HIM?!?! HELL TO THE NO!! I don't think she cares about him anymore. Why can't he come inside our house?? What did he do to deserve that??

I miss him so much. I only get to see him after school and every other weekend. I cry when I tell him I miss him when I'm talking on the phone with him. I try to be strong when it comes to that. I feel alone in this situation. I wonder how much pain a human heart can take...

Well, this post is long as it is. Sorry if I babbled a lot. Thats all for today.

Until then,

Divine Dae

Thought of the Day: Stress

I only have one thing to say. School sucks.

Arrivederci i miei amori,

Divine Dae

Twin-Mania!

Bonjour tout le monde! OMG! I am boy crazy today! I got a new celebrity crush everybody! *gasp* I hope Tom doesn't find out. ;) Haha I have a crush on Jedward, aka John and Edward. They were on the show X-Factor and made it to week 7. I just found out about them just yesterday. They are so cute, funny and deadly awesome! They're Irish but they don't have a strong Irish accent. But who cares?!? They're still cute! I just wish I can tell whos John and whos Edward though. They're not like Bill and Tom who dress completely different from each other. The Jedwards dress the same all the time! I wonder if they ever get tired of dressing like each other all the time...I don't think they dress the same at home though. :P

I don't know whats with me and twins. Haha For some reason twins are cute to me. I wanna date a twin. Haha Wouldn't that be cool? Dating a twin...haha ONLY IN MY DREAMS!!! To tell you the truth, I'm not that pretty. Well, at least in my opinion. I mean, I feel good about my looks when I'm at home but, when I go out in public, I feel ugly compare to other people. That just shows I need more confidence I guess...Anyways, tell me if your a Jedward fan and if theres a fan website for them!

Au revoir tout le monde!,

Divine Dae

Thought of the Day: CLOTHES!

I wish I had a closet full with these kind of clothes! I barely have any clothes because most of them were old or small. I'm trying to rebuild my closet again. :P If anyone knows where to get these clothes, don't be shy, TELL ME! haha If you do, I'll mention you in one of my possssst. No? Not buying? Yeah, thought so.

From,

Divine Dae

Here's a Thought...

Hallo jeder! :)

I know its been awhile, I haven't post anything since Valentines Day. Crazy, I know. haha I was thinking, with school and my busy schedule (which is basically sleepiness, stuff I cant think of posting and maybe...just maybe...laziness) I could just post pictures of what I'm thinking on that day. Does that sound like a good idea? I can't always write whats on my mind everyday, it kinda takes time to think about what to post. With the crazy commotions thats going on in my life, I sometimes don't have time to think of what to post. So, why not just post pictures of what I was thinking today?? Like what people say, a picture speaks (or holds?) a thousand words (did I even quote it right? haha).

I think it sounds fun than just to babble on and on about something but, I will babble in some of my post haha sorry. Hopefully my babbles aren't boring you. I try to make my posts very interesting by talking about fun subjects and putting cool pics. :) Remember, Im new to blogging, so go easy on me. If any of you professional bloggers or new bloggers (like me :P) have any suggestions to make my blog have some spice, please tell me. Im open to new ideas about writing and all that good stuff. Well, thats all I guess! Thanks for reading! :)

Auf Wiedersehen,

Divine Dae

(pic from senseofashion.com/blog)

All The Single Ladies!

Beyonce Single Ladies

All the single ladies (7x)

Now put your hands up

Up in the club, just broke up

I`m doing my own little thing

Decided to dip, but now you wanna trip

Cause another brother noticed me

I'm up on him , he up on me

Don`t pay him any attention

I Cried my tears,for three good years

Ya can`t be mad at me [Chorus]2x Cuz if you like it then you should have a ring on it

If you like it then you should have a ring on it Don`t be made once you see that he want it

If you like it then you should put a ring on it

WhoHoo!! Single Ladies Anthem!

Leonardo Dicapri

The guy we all know from Titanic! Doesn't he look fierce in this picture?? Although, I would have liked it more if he didn't have a cigarette in his mouth.

Johnny Depp

The man who plays many faces in a BUNCH of movies! This picture is from the movie Crybaby,in which he plays the title role.

Taylor Lautner

Awhooooo! The wolfman that plays Jacob Black from Twilight!

Channing Tatum

The man who plays in Step Up and GI Joe! Gosh, just look at him! This pic speaks for itself.

Tom Felton

He plays the bad boy, Draco Malfoy, in the Harry Potter series. Who doesn't like the bad boy types?? haha

Rupert Grint

Do I really need to tell you what movie he plays in?? haha I think you guys know him already.

Matthew Bomer

He's on USA network, he's on a show White Collar and he plays a con artist who is recruited by the FBI as a consultant. I love that show, its very entertaining to watch.

The Outsiders!

If you haven't seen this movie, you have to watch it!! Its the BEST! It has Rob Lowe, Tom Cruise and Patrick Swayze! Who wouldn't watch that??

And I save the best for last, Tom and Bill Kaulitz from Tokio Hotel! Aren't they FINE?!?

Happy Valentines Day everybody!! I hope you guys have a good time of this day of love or as I call it, this day of "evol" (if you don't get it, say out loud. Did you get it?). Man, where's my bouquet of roses from Tom?? Im waitinnnnng. haha Gosh, I wish that would come true.

To all the single ladies, heres some eye "candy" from me! ;) haha I hope you guys enjoy it! I looked high and low for these pics.

Adeus,

Divine Dae

P.S. Did I miss any other eye "candies"? Let me know ;)

Im Such A Noob

As you may know from reading my sisters post, we had an argument about backgrounds and templates. Haha I honestly don't see the difference with those two. Is there a difference? Because if there is, please tell me. I have no clue when it comes to blogging or anything that is.....well technology. I have to ask my sister on everything that comes to technology and this time I didn't. I was looking for a new background for my blog and I found one that I like. I went to download it and when I was putting it on my layout, it said I couldn't keep some of my widgets (playlist and my followers). I stupidly click yes, keep my widgets even though its going to make my layout look COMPLETELY stupid. When I clicked preview I was like "OMG, thats so ugly", my sister said "what did you do?". When she saw it she said "did you download a 3 column?" (ok, can someone explain what columns are? And are there different types?). I honestly didn't know what I download haha. It had my old background with my playlist and followers on the top and when you scroll down you can see another background which was ugly. I explained to her what I did and basically she told me, "next time, ask me for help, ok?". Hahaha yeah, it was that bad and I totally screwed up my profile but, now it's ok (thanks to my sister). She even told me to take care of it as if it were like a living being. hahaha Isn't that funny? My blog is like a living being and I abused it. I'm sorry blog, I didn't mean to abuse you in such ugly background layouts. I wont do it again, I PROMISE. haha

Au Revoir,

Divine Dae

Blog Wars

Good people of the blogging world, I'd like to say something: I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for letting my sister loose in the blogging world. Just now we were arguing about "walls" and "wallpaper". Or, in blogging terms, templates and backgrounds. Now, correct if I'm wrong, but these are two different things, are they not? I know I said this would be up to my sister, Dae, for this blog. But she's completely abusing it!

Not like "using chatspeak/bad grammar" or "posting x-rated pics" sort of way. But she attempted to apply a template without my assistance! And she's claiming that "wallpaper" and "walls" are the same thing! I introduced her to this world, I've been around a little longer (not that long, but long enough).

I should make this clear: I'm not mad, or upset, or in a feud with my lil' sis. We're not even fighting. We just disagree with each other. I don't care that much about the template. I'd just like our blog to look somewhat decent. Okay, I admit: I'm a bit of a perfectionist. Sue me.

Aaaand I'm done. I just wanted to say that and be done with it. Until next time, cheers!

-Summer Knightly

Iv'e Got A Crush...A European One

You know what sucks? Something you know you can never have but, yet you still daydream about it.

Yeah, I'm talking about a guy and not just any ordinary guy. A guy that has skills on the guitar, good sense of humor, gorgeous eyes, charming personality, and a smile that makes me melt. The only problem is that he lives in the celebrity world.

Yes, I have a crush on a celebrity.` His name is Tom Kaulitz, he plays the guitar in Tokio Hotel. But can you blame me? He looks FINE! haha Well at least in my opinion that is. I mean, how can you not fall in love with a guy that has a European accent?? It's so cute how European people talk in english. Don't you agree?? Well, if you don't (which I doubt it) on my playlist is a video of Tokio Hotel singing Dark Side of the Sun. You can here Bill's (the lead singer in the band) German accent and I'll let you decide if it's cute or not. Tom also has a German accent too and it's sooooo cute when he talks in english! I try really hard not to daydream about him or obsessed about him. Im kinda scared of getting obsessed with something because I wont be truly happy if that certain obsession doesn't come true and wont stop obsessing till it does. Is that weird? haha Your probably like "yeah, it is you weirdo". I know it sounds DRAMATIC but, thats how I feel about my obsessions. But then again, I did get over my old obsessions in time (don't ask me what they were. I don't remember). Maybe it's just a phase that all teenage girls go through. haha

I have to admit, this is the first time I really really like a celebrity guy and think he's hot. I mean it's not like I haven't said "hey, he's cute" when I'm looking at other guy celebrities. But there's just something with Tom that makes me really like him. I have times when I'm talking with other girls and one of them brings up "omg, Channing Tatum is so HOT in Step Up!" and other girls would agree. I would just say "yeah, he was ok in Step Up". Haha Don't get me wrong, Channing Tatum is FINE but I like Tom better. ;) Do you know what I mean? Like you would go crazy if you saw the guy you like. I hope you guys know what I'm talking about. haha I sound crazy, huh? I think I'm boy crazy. haha Man, it stinks when you cant have what you want.

Auf Wiedersehen,

Divine Dae

P.S. Sorry if you have no idea what I'm talking about. It's hard to channel my thoughts and feelings when it comes to writing. Thats why I have a blog, so I can practice.

March Madness!

I don't know about you guys, but I'm excited about the movie Alice in Wonderland directed by Tim Burton! I love Tim Burton movies! Even though they are kinda creepy and dark, they are pretty awesome movies. I love the movies Edward Scissor Hands, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Corpse Bride and Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street. Alice in Wonderland looks really good and I cant wait to watch it! I like the costumes and the make-up, they look really cool! Also, Johnny Depp is going to be in the movie! Who wouldn't watch that?? The movie isn't all I'm excited about! It's also the soundtracks in the movie!! I heard little snippets of the soundtracks and they sound AWESOME! They have Tokio Hotel, The All-American Rejects, Plain White Tee's and Owl city! I'm mostly excited that Tokio Hotel is going to be on the soundtrack! I love them and its cool how they're on the soundtrack for Tim Burtons movie! They're singing "strange" with Kerli(I don't know who she is...does she have good music?). They're going to be heard more after the movie I bet. The movie is coming out on March 5. I wonder if its going to be a big seller...I hope the movie meets my expectations.

arrivederci,

Divine Dae

The New Kid

Umm....Hi! Im new to blogging so please go easy on me.

So I guess you want to know a little about me. Well, I Love to draw, look at cool pictures, find cute clothes, and sing. Im a weirdo at heart and proud to be one! I like to be different from the crowd (even though at times I want to be accepted from it) but, its not always fun to be normal. Am I right? Thats all I guess. I'll tell you if I get any weirder.

CIAO,

Divine Dae

New Blog

I know what you're thinking: a new blog? Why? Because of my sister, Dae*. She's a little younger then me and wanted to try out blogging. So this our blog and we'll be attempting to blog together. Well, this one will probably be more for her then me.

You'll have to excuse the background. It'll be up to her, since this is kinda her blog.

Yeah. I really got nothing. I blogged out on my other blog. So, until next time, cheers!

-Summer Knightly

*names have been changed to protect the fabulous